Party.. like no tomorrow ;)

the party was awesome..
everyone seems to enjoyed every single moment of it...
i saw a lots of couples :P


kinda makes me emo somehow
the trouble that i have..
keep on stirring my head upside down..


the rain.. drizzling..
makes me thought of.... regret...
but what is done.. is done! .


now i swear that i'm not gonna do the same mistake again! never.!
well. i don't know what else to say..


just now fell down of the slides..
kinda injured my back bone.. fvck..
finally.. again.. i felt that.. i'm so useless..
i can't do anything correctly ..
well except playing with fire..


watched the fire burned the leaves.. to ashes..
how nice if .. we can burn certain memory ..
into nothing.. but ashes..


maybe i should stop being so emo...
i must not think back the past...
i must move forwards!
i must improvise!


<Gambateh>

when things come too easily ~ u will not appreciate it~ ok ok~ so must work hard for it~
next time i wont give high hopes~
i must control myself~
i won't kill myself

I read a story today~ it's a very touching story~ tsk tsk T^T
~ ~
Story Title: IF ONLY


10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the guy next to me. He
was my so called "best friend". I stared at his dark, messy hair, and wished he was mine. But he didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, he walked up to me and asked me for the notes he had missed the day before and i handed them to him. He said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was him. He was in tears, mumbling on and on about how his homies had left him. He asked me to come over because he didn't feel like being alone, so I did. As I sat next to him on the sofa, I stared at his beautiful, brown eyes, wishing he was mine. After 2 hours, one basketball movie, and three bags of chips, he decided to go to sleep. He
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom he walked to my locker. "My date is sick" he said; she's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, we were standing at my front door step! I stared at him as he smiled at me and stared at me with his crystal eyes. I want him to be mine, but he isn't thinking of me like that, and I know it. Then he said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as his perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get his diploma. I wanted him to be mine, but he didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone
went home, he came to me in his smock and hat, and I cried as I hugged him. Then he lifted my head from his shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That guy is getting married now. I watched him say "I do" and drive off to his new life, married to another woman. I wanted him to be mine, but he didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before he drove away, he came to me and said "you came!". He said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a guy who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a letter that he had wrote during his high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at her wishing she was mine, but she doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish she would tell me she loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.




oh well i can write a good story from this x)~ hehe ~ want try to make the examiners to cry :P coz of my essay :P~ hehe ~ 


Good News ~ there is a HIGH percentage im goin to fail my maths and sejarah :P~ 


english, perdagangan, Science ~ all improve :D nice ~ ~ my perdagangan teacher said~ 


Pn Azizah(Perdagangan Teacher): Eh~ Biar betul Raymond nii~ dulu fail perdagangan ~ sekarang ~ pass pulak~ tiru arrr ~ 


LmaO! i where got so bad~ x) im a good student! hehe x))

Guess no one is reading this :P hehe~ maybe~ but i don't know~ the future is uncertain~ I can't believe i'm stucked when writing stories in exam hmm~ but oh well at least english paper 1 i wrote about 2. As i read the paper i cried.... bla bla bla :P

THE SUMMARY! >

the story revolves eons ago ~ A prince Named Arthas Menethil was born four years before the outbreak of the first war between Humans And Orcs.. King Terenas and Queen Lianne Were Joyed and all of Lordareon Celebrates Arthas Birthday~

He Was taken as An Apprentice of uther Lighbringer ~ the Leader Of The Kinights Of Silver Hand.... At the age of 19 Arthas was given the Holy Mace called Light's Vengeance..

In The Age of 23 years old he was sent to Investigate A Plague that had gripped the Northland. With The Assistance of Jaina Proudmoore and Captain FAlric, they encountered the Necromancer  Kel'Thuzad in the town of Brill. Kel'Thuzad Already Infected the grain from Andorhal and shipped it to outlying villages. Before Arthas killed him~ he spoke of Mal'Ganis a demon who led the Scourge.

When he arrived .. ahh i'm so lazy to type :P here's the link for the Prince Of Darkness http://www.wowwiki.com/Arthas_Menethil ~ enjoy :P the story line is quite long making it interesting ;)

when the time comes~ u will eventually know how this positive thinking positive feedback works~ but let me tell you a little secret to make it happen~ in order to work this positive thinking abilities~ 1 must be freed from your daily routine~ and doesn't have obstacles in mind path~ so that u can think indirectly out of your mind and connect to this positive thinking power~ you can feel the power thru meditation~ but it is the 1 fate that to meet such power~ ~ and Positive Thinking works Greater with the power of WILL~ example~ YOU wish the world will become a Better Place~ there is like millions of people also wish for this~ of course it will happen~ ~ 2nd if u wish to achieve great marks in your exam ~ 1 must take the initiative to study! you can just sit there and do nothing~ eventually u can't achieve great marks in your exam~ you must help yourself ~ you can't just sit there and wish for it ~  but Positive thinking does leads to Positive Mood~ our brain have the power to change the world~ can good exist without evil? can there be light without dark? can there be positive without negative? can there be hot without cold? can there be food without hungry?~ and the answer is No~ if something exist The POLAR Opposite must Also Exist~ ~ bad side always exist in our life~ so we must control it :) Good luck ~ i can see u have a long life to live~ i learned palm reading~ hehe :) GAMBATEH! u can Make it HAPPEN! it is whether u want or not :D

suffering.. when u are down! you must climb up! this is the path that u have to explore on your own.. but.. if u really in need of help .. gimme a call.. i will be there.. don't worry..

back from work... become a dish washer =="... came home my bro scream at me d ... gila.. want use my laptop PLEASE USE A GOOD MANNER! TO TALK! GIVE U THIS U WANT MORE! ... haiz...

you still don't understand... what i love about u is not the outer beauty... what i love is you~ just you... If u become ugly i also still love u.... the inner beauty.. thats what i love about u... even thou u crush my hear a lil.. i still with fix it... i will never give up..

here is the poem i promise you

Sorry

Sorry is useless..
Sorry no cure....
Sorry can't make any big changes...
But i'm still saying sorry...

Sorry Gives Me HOPE
There is still a lil HOPE
....
Sorry Did make changes! but it is a small changes ...
depends on people...

Forgive...

I'm truly sorry...(that's all i think i said sorry to much)